simple thoughts that come and go with the days

I am a "Junior" in college, but this is technically my second year in college. It's been a hard two years. I feel as though I've learned a lot, and yet it seems to be taking me a while to become. When I say "become" what I mean is it seems as though it's taking me a while to reach my destination. I don't feel accomplished or completely ready. I sometimes don't feel change.

And even in thinking of change, I remember a voice teacher of mine once told me I couldn't just wait around for change to just hit me. I have to make an active decision and go after it. Active being the critical key.

I have my good days and I definitely have my bad ones. It's funny because I feel like this is the most in my life that I care so much, and yet do very little.

When I was younger I did beyond what I was asked to do on every assignment, on every task. But, I cared for a different reason then. Or at least that's what I think. Now I think I'm caring for all the right reasons and I can't seem to find my footing on the whole matter.